R.eminiscence

Dear Diary,
i seem to get crazier & crazier.
i dont understand.
i thought everything will be better?

there's this stupid bitch who said she wont pay for anything.
well,opps,sorry.
will try not to use absurd words.
promise.
well,there's this doggy at home.
we had a huge arguement.& it aint my fault at all.
and then she said, "you got fight for yourself,no respect at all,no money for you"
well.
literally,she dont deserve my respect,its too good for her.
then,i have a problemo.
if i have to work for my money & to pay for school next year,
wont it be "worse than working during hols"?
well...

im exhausted now.
will ttyl.
thanks.

~au revoir~

am i getting paranoid?

am i crazy?

will i be?

i think i am.

Dear Diary,

Im really exhausted.
Grad night is this friday.
recently,
ive not been the giving one.
always demanding & stuff.
but i dont know why.
i dont know how long the friendship will last.
but i do hope its forever.

~adios~

Dear Diary,

I'm sorry that i did not have you updated for a very long time.
It's been a laborious week.
alright,I'm not bragging about myself,
but i think that i've been contributing alot to many stuff.
Now,my kids are gonna go for camp next week
& im gonna take a new batch of students next year.
I really hope that the class i take is bonded & will be with us teachers.

Recently,
my life have been quite cluttered.
i mean...
I've a friggin' family who doesnt give a sh*t to how hard i studied for my examinations & my result to come.
Also,ive been facing alot of "need to please people" situations,
which,i have also been forcing myself to do so.
I kept attenuating myself to a point where even,
the candle in the darkest room cant be seen.

I've been trying to get a job recently,& it doesnt look like what i had expected.
I'm currently at home waiting for N'level results.
Gaming all day long is not what im doing.
I'm going to church nearly 4-5 days per week & have to please people with what i do or what i say.
Dont you find it tiring?
I DO FIND IT TIRING.

Oh.
I'm going out with my BFF on grad night week.
you know how excited i am?
its like...
Dude,last week of seeing each other.
i cant explain how im feeling about this
but it has been hard on me.

My feelings have been quite unkempt recently.
I really do not want to fall back to my old self.
My "emo" self.

Anyway,it seems that no one reads my blog.

Diary,
wont you get tired of my rantings?

~ends~

C.laudia♥

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living in her perfect world
Until the bad guy come,
and tore everything apart.."

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was on earth for 16 annoying years.
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